Life lessons from a 29 year old

A selfie on my 29th birthday!

On April 22nd, I turned 29. I think that of all the “holidays”, I love birthdays the most. I feel grateful to have had another year of life, with the promise of one ahead. Aging is a gift. The greatest wealth we have is our time and our health. And we’re not here for very long. Even the longest life, is pretty darn short.

Throughout the year, I write down all the lessons, reflections and realizations I have in various aspects of my life. I have shared these with you over the past few years – 25, 27, 28.

I hope you enjoy reading through these reflections, perhaps with a nice hot cup of coffee or tea, because it’s a long one. My life is always so rich with growth lessons, especially this last year. The lessons I’ve learned this year have been centered around facing my fears, failure, mystical experiences, shame, ambition, and mastery.

Enjoy 🙂

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How to find lightness in the dark (Part 1)

It is April. My birthday month. And I am coming to a time of great reflection over the way my life has been so far, especially in the last year or so. Where the only word to describe life would have been….sdkofhisiodhfaliuohlsidhaifdsgajsbfaoaaksdnflsl. And not in a good way!

I was a very sad person for a long time. I felt like I was stuck on a merry-go-round, spinning uncontrollably round and round, and it was making me sick to my stomach, but I just couldn’t get off it.

My life was hanging low, hanging dark and deep for a long time. Like the mist that blankets a lake on a cold winters morning. But now the winter has lifted, and heaviness of my own breath is gone. A new sunlight glitters delicately where the shadows once slept.

It was not/is not an easy journey to take. And every step required some kind of internal strength that I didn’t know I had. I wanted to share with you my reflections during this time. And a few of the things I did, some of the steps I took, that helped me move forward in life. I hope they will be helpful for you. I will also post this post in a few instalments as it is quite long. Here is the first part.

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1. Developed a Spiritual practice

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Today, I turned 22

To quote Grey’s Anatomy (the TV show), Meredith once says “Bones break. Organs burst. Flesh tears. We can sew the flesh, repair the damage, ease the pain. But when life breaks down,  when we break down, there’s no science. No hard and fast rules. We just have to feel our way through.”

That’s what I feel like I’ve been doing this last year – feeling my way through.

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10 truths of having a strong sense of self.

This is a post I’ve been meaning to publish for a long time as it is a personal one for me. It’s something I am putting my focus on at this point in my life. It’s all about developing a strong sense of self. When I think of a strong sense of self, I think of emotional maturity. I see it as a strong beam of light from within me – instead of a flickering flame. Over the course of a few posts I will explore 10 truths of having and maintaining a strong sense of self. In this post I want to describe each one briefly, and in the following ones I will go into some other ones in depth with specific things we can do to achieve them! Wow, haven’t I got so much fun lined up for you 😉

What we need to develop is a strong sense of self. A powerful inner strength that resounds from somewhere deep within you.

You have a strong sense of self when:

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I don’t know you

 

I don’t know you but I know that when you came alive, you were born to be someone very special.

I don’t know you, but I know that when you were a child, you looked at the world like it was a wonderland, and somewhere along the way, wondered where the magic went.

I don’t know you but I know you have loved someone more than you thought you could.

I don’t know you but I know that there is no one else in the world quite like you.

I don’t know you but I know you’ve looked at your naked body in the bathroom mirror and felt totally disconnected with your body.

I don’t know you but I know that you have some memories from a long time ago that still hurt to think about today.

I don’t know you, but I know that there was a moment in your life when you asked yourself the painful question “is there something wrong with me?”

I don’t know you but I know there came a day when you debated whether you should chase the colours of your dreams or just be “real” and troubled over why those two lives couldn’t be the same.

I don’t know you but I know that one day you woke up and looked in the mirror and felt completely beautiful.

I don’t know you but I know that you’ve once hurt somebody just because they hurt you first.

I don’t know you but I know that you’ve hurt somebody with your words and realized that you could never take them back.

I don’t know you but I know that you believe in love, and even in the times you don’t, I know you would if you let yourself fall.

I don’t you but I know that you’ve felt betrayed.

I don’t know you but I know that you’ve privately questioned things you’ve spent your life convincing yourself and other people you’re sure about.

I don’t know you but I know that sometimes you wish you had more courage.

I don’t know you but I know that you’ve cried and felt better afterwards.

I don’t know you but I know that somebody you love has died.

I don’t know you but I know that you’ve felt stuck in a job that you’ve out grown.

I don’t know you but I know that you’ve been afraid to leave, even though in your heart, you knew you had to.

I don’t know you but I know there is something in your life to be very proud of.

I don’t know you but I know that you sometimes still think about the one that got away.

I don’t know you but I know that you there are times you look back on your life and see the way all the seeming coincidences have all been in your favour.

I don’t know you but I know you have felt judged for who you are.

I don’t know you but I know that there is someone out there who loves you and believes in you and wants you just the way you are.

I don’t know you but I know it hurts when somebody doesn’t believe in you and your big dreams, no matter who that somebody is.

I don’t know you but I know there is someone who thinks you are the coolest person ever without even trying.

I don’t know you but I know that you have pictured how life would carry on if you died.

I don’t know you but I know there have been moments where you have felt completely cherished and loved.

I don’t know you but I know there are times when you have made a difference, even when you don’t believe you have.

I don’t know you but I know that as a teenager, you tried hard to fit in and stand out, all at the same time.

I don’t know you but I know there’s something you are very good at, and could be even more wonderful at.

I don’t know you but I know you have a talent that you neglect because you don’t believe you have enough time or money.

I don’t know you but I know that if you just took a moment to realize how loved, howcherished, and how special you are, you would find yourself in all your friends, and families, and enemies and strangers. And you would see that your stories are everybodies stories, and that doesn’t make them any less important or any less meaningful. It just makes us human. And real. And you would see how together we are in everything we have ever faced, and will ever face in our lives. And you would see that you are never really alone. And you would open your eyes, your arms, and your heart

and you would come home.

again.